Life
was never easy for me neither it was ever tough. I belong to a middle class
family. Like all my other friends I had big dreams. My family always supported
me in every field. I came out of my small city for my studies. My college was
too good as it happens with all. I was a topper in my college. I made many good
friends and life was going exciting. Finally with all four years with memories
we all were parted to start a new challenging life.
My
friends were placed in various reputed companies. I too was placed in a company
far from my home country. It was almost a dream come true at that time. I never
knew this was just the starting of challenges .With zeal and vigor I flew away
all away there in the state where I was just like a new born. New office, new friends again filled my life.
I always like to be with people. I never like to be alone at any point but may
be destiny was little different for me. I came close to a person and started
falling to him. In all my hard times, he used to be there holding my hands and
guiding me. I felt so lucky that I started feeling a home outside home. I never
realized that I was going far away from my other friends who loved me. I used
to enjoy his company so much that I did not even care about anything. But
really you should be with one who loves you not the one whom you love. And he
was with the one who loves him. He was an intelligent guy. I love his choice.
Suddenly
I got an urgent call from my home and I flew back leaving my job behind. And
also he was left behind with a promise we will soon meet. I reached and was all
shattered .I was so far in my own tune and life. My grandfather met with an
accident and was in coma. It was almost a month he faced with accident, but I
was unknown to it. My parents always thought about me and my happiness as they
knew I was too close to him. I loved my grandpa more than me. I had spent my
childhood with him as my parents were working and they did not have much time
for me. Now I was leaner towards my home and grandpa needed me. He was in coma
but seeing me he had a glow in his eyes. I could now not even think of my job
so far. I was feeling so guilty of myself that I was not with him when he
needed me. As time passed I started missing my office. And of course him too. I
used to talk to him but due to distance there were some differences. I tried to
make it up but always took it lightly because I had a hope that we will meet
soon. I was more indulged at home and also had to think of some source of
income. I started taking tuition and also learnt a lot about households. Almost
I was alone now and all friends were settled far away. My dad was retired now
so I became the only earning member of my family. I was tried to be happy in
all situation as I knew tension will be of no use. Now I was sure I would never
be back to my job city.
I
was quite upset as I started feeling away from him. I had no one to share my
feelings now. Many a times I felt alone, lost but no one came to know about it.
I had some hope somewhere somehow we will meet. But now I came to know how my
friends missed me when I was there. I almost lost contacts with all and now
when I need them no one was with me. Everyone has their own importance in life.
You can’t simply ignore anyone. I still feel ashamed of myself that I lost my
close friends when I was with him. My full life roamed around him and now he is
not with me, no one is with me. I remember now that when they needed me I was
never with them. Now they do not have time for me. But I never showed this to anyone.
I was successful enough. My parents never knew anything about this. I now
understand that you should never give someone so much importance that you start
ignoring others. And now all of a sudden again I got news of a plane crash. I
lost him too. I was no more with me myself. A little hope I had, I lost it too.
I was so depressed that time that I wanted to end myself. But I had to live for
my parents. I was a girl with full of dreams, full of ambition and full of
hopes. In the past few years I lost myself. I lost my friend. I lost everyone.
I started hating myself because of all small things which I lost. I lost my
control over myself.
A
girl who could not live alone, always used to find someone, now is all alone. I
am facing this world. My parents never came to know how lonely I am. Time and
tide waits for none. Life taught me many things in every step of life. I am
very positive towards my future and hope that will have a bright one. I have
opened a coaching center and also work with an NGO side by side. I am very
happy with small kids and with their innocence. Life is too unpredictable to
live with regrets. Life is too short, so make your dreams come true. Never let
anyone down and most important make the person feel what he deserves. Every
person plays a very important role in your life. Never ignore one just because
you are giving importance to someone else. Everyone has some priorities but
balancing of priorities is other name of life. Everyone is given a single life.
Live it. Enjoy it. Do not sit with the things happened in past. Overpower it.
I
cannot stop my life with all that have happened. It was just a way that god
wanted me to learn that I should face life alone. This was the only weakness
and now this is the only strength. Be thankful to everyone in life but most
important respect yourself. Self respect is the only way of loving yourself. Do
not start loving the other person so much that you start neglecting yourself.
Self confidence leads you ahead. Each and every day is important; each and
every moment is memorable. Enjoy it and cherish it.
Today
neither my grand pa is with me nor my job. I am just surrounded with handful of
people who are lost somewhere. They are just waiting for a ray of hope and I am
just trying to be a part of it.
The characters in this write-up
are fictitious and any resemblance to persons living or dead is purely
coincidental
